Realization

IF you like me don't read this post.

I have reached the realization that I am lonely.
I long ago gave up on a long term serious romantic relationship.
I did this for several reasons.
1. I am not very good with people. I am not a hermit and I do have friends. I do have someone I adore as well. My friends are dear to me and I consider loyalty extremely important. I just am not good with people. I am not a patient person.
2. I think it would be greatly unfair to the other person. I spend more time sick than well. I do not like to go out. I am not a nightclub person. I am not very athletic. I do not do well in the sun, it may give Superman and Birdman their powers but the heat drains me. This world would not exists with out heat of the sun but I make a point of avoiding it.

Also for most of my early life I was the target of other people. Not just kids but adults as well. My experience in school have taught me that so called adults of the world are the last people I want left in charge.

Case in point. I had so much hope for are present president I was very happy he had been elected. But slowly he has exposed himself to be another arrogant jock.

I am sure you will say I have no one to blame but myself and there is no doubt in my mind you may be right. However in my own defense I have reached a point where everything is work. Even the simple task of going to the mall requires so much preparation and aggravation that there are points it simple is not worth the effort.

Most of my friends have moved on with thier lives and rightly so. By and large they are doing splendidly and I really enjoy hearing of their succeses in the world.

I guess I will simply have to dig in and get use to being alone.

Thank God for the Mythbusters.